I was extremely confident when I went to see my Mistress last week. I had really lived up to my task, was caged in and had the keys attached to a little gift. She would love to play with me I was sure. But this little voice in my head should have warned me louder: She will punish you, She will. 

What happened? Well, earlier that day She tested me. Mistress Emma sent me a message that we had to make a new appointment. One week delay and although I accepted her decision, I replied with an angry emoticon. That was rude and bad behavior. Unacceptable for my Mistress. But I did not realize it had made her so angry. 

So my confidence was soon to disappear. The session was all about pain and humiliation. Constantly Mylady reminded me of my shortcomings. 

The whip came down on my back. I noticed it was a different whip. It hurt in a totally different way. Mylady went on for quite some time. But there is no choice than to accept. She was right! Like always! And She reminded me about the nice long chat we had about submission. And my promise to improve. I felt extremely small. Mylady knows, every time again, how to put me in my place and in all honesty: She is right every time again. All these small stupid mistakes I make must make her crazy and angry. Will you never learn slave? You were supposed to be a better slave but again you failed. I hated myself for being so stupid. In stead of a relaxed nice session to please my Mistress, I forced her to correct me. Again!

Mylady then put her strap-on. I had not seen her like that before. I went on my knees and She demanded total dedication while I was licking and sucking her rubber cock. She then demanded a deep throat suck. It was impossible for me to suck it that deep. I nearly vomited a couple of times. I saw how disappointed She was. I couldn't comply, I wanted it, but I couldn't. She needs to train me in the near future. 

After this disappointment She made me sit in the gynecology chair. She played with me, forced her finger in my anus. And after a while a dildo. She knows I hate anal penetration. But She wanted and needed to make a statement. 

All men are animals She said. I asked her why? Well, you men only want your own pleasure, regardless what women say, feel, want or need. While your wife takes care of you, your house and your family, you go to the bar, the football or to chase other women. How often did you cheat on your wife She asked? How often? I was ashamed, three times Mylady. Well, She said, I prove my point. You, like an animal, want your pleasure instead of treating your wife like a queen. 

I disagreed with her and tried to reason with her. Without any luck of course.  When She walked through the studio I followed her and my lust to grab and kiss her was gigantic. I smelt the scent of her latex outfit and her perfume. But She is untouchable, She is out of your league! And when I had these thoughts, I suddenly, in total shock, realized, She was right. Like an animal, I wanted to mate with her. But I should treat her as my Mistress

My Mistress, I said, you are right: I am an animal. But as from now, that will change. I was near her face but controlled myself completely. She is Mylady and I have nothing to want, to demand. I am an animal but under her control, I can learn to serve, to treat women in the way we should. It is not too late. First to recognize and as from now, I will behave better and better. Another valuable lesson is learned, I am amazed how She does it but I am proud to be her stupid, learning slave. I will improve Thanks to this amazing woman I am allowed to call my Mistress. 

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