Down the rabbit hole

Down the rabbit hole

PRELUDE This isn’t a regular story. This is a daily journal of my Chastity experience with Mistress Emma. How we got to this point will be part of another story. It started with a very small and seemingly innocent deal, and being locked into chastity for 1 or 2 weeks. But along the way, it escalated into this behemoth of an experience, with an extremely dire consequence for me. Mistress Emma and I wanted everyone to have a full, raw, pure & detailed account of the entire experience. She ordered me to keep a journal every day.  So all slaves Read more »

Chastity Contract

Chastity Contract

General rules: The slave has to stay in chastity from 06/04 until 27/04 for a total of 22 days. The slave is not allowed to remove the chastity cage for any reason other than Supervised cleaning. The slave will record a continuous video from the time of unlocking until they are locked up again. Showing the cleaning.  Ensuring that no cheating can happen.  Failure to comply with this will result in the same punishment as failure on an edging challenge. (See later) Each orgasm the slave has, for whatever reason and in any way (ruined, anal, regular, …), will add Read more »

Special treatment with the Emma Paddle

Special treatment with the Emma Paddle

There are always those exciting moments when you receive a message from The Goddess – slave mark I am back in the country, and it’s time to get you back in line. And Mistress Emma is the only one who can do this exactly the way I deeply desire and need. Finally, the day arrived, the Sunday afternoon, and I went off to the beautiful Goddess, Mistress Emma. She opened the door, and I was deeply impressed. Full in leather. Apparently, that was the dress code for today. Then Mistress Emma looked me deep in the eyes. I was just Read more »

The desire, the fear, and everything in between.

The desire, the fear, and everything in between.

I have known Mistress Emma for approximately five years. We can both be wild when we play; we have this chemistry that’s hard to explain. It’s like magic. A pull and push sort of thing. We ride on the same wave lengts i suppose. Whether it is a hardcore, challenging extreme session we have in mind, or rather easy going, yet extremely intense game that gets developed way further than I have expected – Mistress Emma never disappoints! And our last session was the perfect example of that. Mistress Emma was abroad on 3 months long vacation, so I had Read more »

Relying on Mistress Emma

Relying on Mistress Emma

Mistress Emma is my Mistress. I have been visiting her for over 7 years now. But over the course of time, She has become way more than a BDSM Mistress to me. First, we became friends and I have been able to rely on Her and lean on Her shoulder whenever I felt lost, scared, or just needed someone to talk to and share my inner thoughts and emotions. I am a very private person, and to open up before someone and discuss what really happens with me and in my head has always been very difficult. But with Mistress Read more »

Severe punishment

Severe punishment

I have been fascinated by Pro Dommes for quite some time now. Yet, my experience so far has always been just fun and interesting, with nothing too deep. I have never been terrified by a woman in my whole entire life. After all, I am a middle-aged, well-built man who visits the gym occasionally, and consider myself in good shape both physically and mentally. I stumbled upon Mistress Emma’s website through one of Her Twitter posts. Once I discovered it, it took me a while to read through the whole thing, and although it struck me as quite interesting, I Read more »

The Queen of Hell unleashed

The Queen of Hell unleashed

The Wish A lot has happened since my first session with Mistress Emma & this one. My first session with Her was my first taste of what Hell could look like. It was painful, but damn, did it taste good. From that moment on, it was clear I wasn’t going anywhere. I wanted more. In the meantime, we’ve had multiple sessions & we’ve signed an ownership contract (which had some special clauses at my request). One of these clauses gives Mistress Emma the right to decide if I get a safe word or not. By default, I would have none. Read more »

Force fem me

Force fem me

I am a sissy sub who is having doubts about my feminine side. I enjoy dressing up and would like to go out in public in full drag, but I just don’t dare to do so. As kinky as I feel when in lingerie and stockings, I also feel ashamed of this. So far, I have been following Mistress Emma’s blog as well as Her Twitter for about 4 years and have always wanted to let Her change me and perhaps claim me just as She has done for so many others, but still. For some reason, I followed from Read more »

The hottest day of the year

The hottest day of the year

The hottest day of the year so far was about to become a whole lot hotter. On a beautiful sunny afternoon, I made my way to the studio where I was greeted by Mistress Emma in a very sexy latex outfit. Our last session had been quite some time ago, so it was good to finally see Her again. Our session was going to be on the top floor of the building. As She led the way, I followed Her sky-high boots up the stairs, the temperature slowly rising with every step… As if the heat of the day wasn’t Read more »

I FOUND THE WAY

I FOUND THE WAY

I was such a disappointment to my Goddess – Mistress Emma. But now I finally found the right way as my eyes were really opened by Her a few weeks ago! My behavior was, according to Mistress Emma very bad. Because I didn’t give her the respect that She earns.  I was not following the agreements, She made with me and was losing her valuable time. Mistress Emma and I met for the first time about 1 year ago and during this year She made a big impression on me. Yet I was too scared to obey Goddess Emma. A Read more »