Did I like the last session with Mistress Emma? No, I did not! Was I rewarded by Mistress Emma and thus satisfied? No, I was not! Was it right though what happened this time? Oh yes, for sure it was!

During my education and training to obtain my submissive role, Mylady found out something was wrong, something was blocking my development. Honestly, I hate it. There is nothing you can hide from Mistress Emma. With her beautiful but dominant eyes, she looks right into the deepest corners of your soul. Mylady said to me, that if I wanted to stay her number 1 slave, I must come clean and I have to tell her what is bothering me. Only when I would confess to her she would be able to start my redemption which eventually could lead to my salvation. I hesitated! Why must I tell her that I have been unfaithful and cheating? It would, no doubt, lead to severe punishment. But Mistress Emma was extremely convincing and I gave in and told her about my sins in the past.

So, the last session with my Mistress was my first step on the path of redemption. The confession was done, now I had to face the consequences, and that is why I did not like to go to her studio. And obviously, she knew. “Do you really want to go through with this slave”, was more or less the first thing she asked me. She noticed I was nervous as I knew the punishment would be fair, but still hard and it would be more than one session before my redemption could be final.

I could have chickened out. I could have ran out of her studio but that would mean I would never see her again and that thought scared me more than the upcoming pain. So, I stood before her and told her I would accept the punishment and I would not complain. My mistake, my cheating, so my punishment.

A variety of whips were on the bed and as she tied me to the cross she must have seen the fear in my eyes. She covered my head with a mask and immediately she started the punishment. I tried to be strong and I lasted quite a long time. Whenever I could, I thanked Mylady for the opportunity to redeem myself. To be forgiven for my sins. And indeed, it did help a little. Nevertheless, the pain was intense and I tried to crawl away from time to time. Stupid! She tied my middle and my legs to the cross as well and I couldn’t move at all. And sure, she continued on her chosen path. This is so 100% Mistress Emma, she knows what to do and she will carry out her plan no matter what. And I realize now that I must be very much ashamed I had put her in this position. Punishing me is her divine duty but she would not have to do so if I would behave! I am sorry Mylady, I am so sorry I made you do this.

The beautiful thing about Mistress Emma is that she guides you through this difficult time. It must be done, but she is with you every step of the way. Sometimes a word of the comfort of a gentle touch on your body. It gives you this new strength you need to go on! You know you would fail without her guiding you through the process. I must be very grateful that I have a Mistress like this!

It was a long and painful session. Intense and there were several moments I had the tears in my eyes. However, together with Mistress Emma, I managed to take all the punishment and I was happy I got through this. It is the first of some stages in redemption but I now know we will get to the forgiveness and I will be reaching salvation thanks to this fantastic woman who is my owner, my Mistress, my everything!

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