When I met Mylady online the last time she, like always was nice, pretty (I should say beautiful) and full of understanding for my problems, my demands and my needs. At the end of our nice long chat, Mylady gave me, like normally, a task, an order or an assignment so you will: do not relief yourself when you think of me.

After a few days now, I know this is, more or less, an impossible task so today I asked Mylady for advice, hoping she would be so kind to lift this task and let me off the hook. But she was quite clear: follow my order and if not you need to face the consequences. Like always, you have a choice: either you do what I ask you to do or you disappoint me by disobeying my order.

It was difficult to get through the day but I managed and to get rid of my energy I decided to go for a long walk. After a few miles, I started thinking how our next session would be like. Mylady would ask me if I had followed the order through, and I would lie and say: Yes Mylady! Mistress Emma would know immediately I was lying and she would slap me in the face: do not lie slave! Tell me the truth!

And yes, I would tell her I was not successful in following her order and obviously, she would demand I should tell her how often and when I masturbated without her permission. I know I will be punished hard for every time I used my hands to get an orgasm so I probably would try to give her a lower number then for real. But she would know, you cannot lie to her without turning your head away, it is impossible!! The punishment will be even harder, not only for not obeying her orders but also for the dishonesty. It will be tough I know!

While I walked back to my quarters, I realized how Mylady gets under my skin sometimes. On one hand, such a nice feeling but on the other hand also extremely scary. So, I better not lie about this, not lie about the moment I almost went into the bushes to relieve myself. I must fight it and be brave and obey the order, fulfill the assignment and if I fail, I will tell her in all honesty I failed and I will take the consequences. Like always……

Slaves are weak without the proper guiding of their Mistresses. And so, you think regularly of your Mistress, to think what she would demand you to do and so on. But while thinking of Mylady I feel the warm horny feeling creeping in my body. It is too hard, an impossible assignment. There is a serious chance I will fail.

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