In search for boundaries
For the second time, I stood there at the door, waiting to be let in. The feelings were a mixture of nerves, excitement, and curiosity. I had been once before, so there was some familiarity with the setting and Mistress Emma. It’s not possible to explore all the possibilities in just one session, so it still felt like the adventure was just beginning. When the door opened, I was greeted warmly, with a knowing smile and the right amount of leather. I knew my limits had not been reached in the first session, we were just getting to know each other, but in that first session, I was also surprised at how much farther I felt I could go.
I wanted to further explore the pleasure achieved through pain, and that seemed to suit Ms. Emma just fine. Naked and restrained, I was teased with an implement that brought real fear. But it was too late to back out and this was why I was there - to find the limits and see if I could push through them. The first strike was followed by endorphins, and my body’s response drew me into the moment. The 20th strike began to warm my body. It was not much longer before I began to sweat, and begging for more was met with a rich laugh that I learned was a reward for good behavior. I began to truly experience the pain that I was there for, the pain that brought pleasure and required my full attention. It did not let up. I began to plead for relief, but was met with more laughter. And it was Her laughter that carried me further than I thought I could go. I was fully in the moment. There was nowhere else I could be, no distractions to pull me away from this experience.
My whole body spasmed at each strike, my nerves screaming for relief, but my mind determined to push through. It took some time, and I could feel that I was getting close to the edge. A kind of panic set in balanced with determination, and in a moment, almost involuntarily, I had to say the safe word and slow things down. An exhalation, and the beginnings of disappointment in myself until I got the reassurance that Ms. Emma had thoroughly enjoyed herself.
The next part of my journey that evening is not for sharing. Afterward, during our recap, we shared our experience, and I was happy to hear that neither of us really believed I had hit the limit, and that there was still some more to explore! To be continued right before Christmas!
Yours forever - slave Mark
