Other than my standard BDSM sessions, I offer sessions to autistic people as well. I have a background in psychology, which allows me to understand individuals with special needs and tend to them. Obviously, those sessions are quite different from my usual free-spirited fiery performances. Further, those sessions are also quite hard for me to perform since one “wrong” move, or a second of distraction from the script, and the whole session can break. The slave’s head can spin with anxiety, and when we are talking about autistic people, extra stress and anxiety are never a good idea.

I need a few days/sometimes even weeks, in preparation and close contact with said person, where we call and set the theme for the session. Then we script the session, the games, and their order, in most cases, even the conversations we shall have.

Then we take a couple of days for me to learn the script and train it relentlessly, so once we meet, I execute it to the tee. In those kinds of sessions, creative freedom is not permitted.

The slave also needs time to get used to it, and often, I receive a request to discuss or change certain parts to fit their desire better. Once we are all ready and the script is approved and learned from both sides, we schedule the meeting. More often than not, when the script is executed correctly, the session goes on without a hitch. Every now and again, an autistic person might feel overwhelmed by the emotions unrevealing in the session. Then it is my call to calm them down and offer support and a brief break if necessary, so they can relax again and we can carry on further.

The mechanisms for every person to calm down vary, and this is why it is so important for us to have good communication prior to the live session. So, in case I need to act, I already know how to do so properly with this particular individual and their specific needs.

But if these kinds of sessions are so difficult and take up so long of my time, why do I execute them? Why do I even bother when there are so many easier ways to play and have people tend to my needs rather than the other way around?

The BDSM world has given me so much! It has allowed me to get to know myself better. It broadened my own horizons beyond belief. It made me feel noticed, loved, appreciated, sought after, longed for…

At this point, I honestly can’t imagine my life without that extra spark that my sessions provide for me. I simply need that high I have when I perform! I seek the gratitude in my servant’s eyes daily.

Further, I like to challenge myself no less than I challenge my slaves. I am always ready to prove to myself that I can climb that mountain, I can lift that weight, I can do anything I put my mind to.

I am not a saint. I am doing this for my own narcissistic needs, as well. To prove myself at the top of my game, and to combine both BDSM and psychology in a way that very few can.

Also, I know there aren’t that many Dommes who feel comfortable/capable of acting on a script.

Further, not everyone is willing to put that amount of work into a single session. Hence, many simply turn the request down or perform an unsatisfactory session, since they themselves might lack the understanding of the sub and his specific needs.

But where does this leave the people on the spectrum? And is it fair to deny them the possibility to explore their desires or needs, simply because their mind works in a different way than what we are used to? We keep on telling them that they are not sick, they are just built differently. Yet, when the times come to include them, to treat them equally, when we have to sacrifice some of our own comfort or put some extra effort, then we suddenly turn our backs and prefer to let someone else take care of it.

I personally prefer to see the possibility of entertaining someone with extra needs as a challenge to myself, rather than a burden I will have to dispose of!

In my opinion, the key here is communication, understanding. Building a connection with said individual and developing this connection. All of it one step at a time...